"How Lucky I Am" (An Excerpt)

It's foreign to me, the whole writing about the good times I've had with you. Sometimes it seems as though I pretend that they never happened, that a walk in the park full of smiles and laughter meant nothing. It meant everything. The days when we were young and didn't know what love was, when everything was an innocent touch and giggle. When you would come over unannounced and be waiting for me in my room while I finished up in the shower. My towel wrapped body had meant nothing to us then, it had seemed normal. It seems unusual now that there had even been a time where I walked up to you in a towel and it didn't end with articles of clothing all over the floor. There were times where watching a romantic comedy had involved us being separated by a large pillow on the couch, and now I just can't seem to get too much of a dosage of your cologne. You used to waltz through the front door as if you owned the place, and sometimes you wouldn't leave until the sun had come up the next day. Those were days where my mother and father didn't mind the door being slightly closed. Now you sneak in through the second story window, a mountain to climb in order to see your princess. Snuggling beneath the sheets at night had seemed so scandalous, especially since my mother had no idea. In her eyes we were still just touchy, close best friends. Sometimes I'm glad we're not just that anymore. You have given me an ample amount of happiness in my life, most of my smiles a result from your corny jokes. Our vacations up north have always been my favorite, a time where we could get away from the world and just enjoy the sound of the wind blowing through the trees. The quiet, the loud, the supervised, the intimate, all the moments I have spent with you describe how lucky I am to have you. I just want you know that, you're my beacon of light. Thank you for loving me through my periods of distress and bumpy roads. I'll never be able to vocalize how much it means to me, but something tells me you already know. Thank you, forever and always, my ride or die, I love you."