Your Clown
You eroded the walls
of my heart.
Flooded each chamber
with your sweet poison.
Still, you linger within.
Haunting, stinging, hurting.
My blood boils
and my spit turns to bile.
I no longer see the smiles
in couples faces.
I no longer feel love
in an embrace.
Still tortured by the
very thought of you.
The meals, the getaways;
Those perfect evenings
Together.
It all meant shit to you.
Now, you mean shit to me.
And yet still,
I find room to love you.
And I hate that.
I reflect in mirrors
and curse your name.
Exorcising myself
from your chains.
Yet, they still bind me.
And the more I struggle
to be free,
The more I am shackled down.
A heartless,
Cold,
Cynic.
Forever in love.
Your fool.
Your clown.