Epiphany

I should've asked why,

This should've been the middle of my poem but....

You were staring at me and your right eye was furious but there was a tear in your left one,

I should've said something but I didn't have breath in my lungs

To give to you,

Overdue on empty words

Explaining to you,

How simple love is

If I have you to love me

And vice versa,

The pain wouldn't be what you think it's set out to be,

Follow me, with both eyes

I know one is still furious and the other is kinda blurry,

But if you can't see clearly just listen,

And if your thoughts are drowning out the sound of my voice

Force your heart to pay attention,

I'm sure it's like physics, right?

There's gotta be some equation that says it's gonna be alright

There's gotta be some technique to find reason within our fights

I tried to do the calculations

The answer kept coming up as an "error"

So in my mind I removed the idea that you're mine

And recalculated as you being a piece of me

Admitting that I fell for you was the least of my decency

Please believe

I have scars and battle wounds too

But just because I have a past doesn't mean I can't fight for you

Despite the truth that we're oh so scared to face

That you can love some one but not trust in them

Because time is all it takes

To shift things out of place

Conflict in the foundation

And too much severity in my mistakes

Now theres too much at stake

To walk away or take a break

The Leo of 1993 won't even look me in my face

I'm scared that if I hold you I'll feel your love start to disintegrate

But I guess if it ain't real love then by default it's gonna be replaced

So now looking in your eyes, wondering If I should let those three words roll off my tongue...

I don't.