Jada Bonner

#1 Fan

When I first met you you spoke lyrics that were fearless

I couldn't help but walk to you to see what I was hearing

You hear me cheering?

I'm your fan

Number one

I always am

But when I said to go be happy I thought you'd meet me where I am.

Suddenly.

Suddenly.

I can't.... Breathe.

You walked away from all this love

and you began the death of me.

I think I was in love with what I thought that we could be

Cause I'm taking a few steps back and you hardly remember me

It's hard to see, but understand my intentions

When you get lonely you look back and see exactly what went missing

I can't help the fact you're different

And your smile is more than an image.

I know I fuck up a lot and I was out of line when I kissed you

I knew you were in love but I swore that I could fix you.

I put my cape away and stopped tryna be superman

Looked in the mirror to realize I'm just a fan.

But I'm a fan that wants you to be happy

One to pick you up when You're down

Even when I'm down

I'll find a way to lift you off the ground

Sacrifice you to the sky

Heaven lost an angel

Somebody asked you if it hurt

And you said no because your wings grew

So I'm down here

Just a fan

Waiting to spread my wings

Waiting for a blessing to help me grow into a better me.


- January 2015