#1 Fan
When I first met you you spoke lyrics that were fearless
I couldn't help but walk to you to see what I was hearing
You hear me cheering?
I'm your fan
Number one
I always am
But when I said to go be happy I thought you'd meet me where I am.
Suddenly.
Suddenly.
I can't.... Breathe.
You walked away from all this love
and you began the death of me.
I think I was in love with what I thought that we could be
Cause I'm taking a few steps back and you hardly remember me
It's hard to see, but understand my intentions
When you get lonely you look back and see exactly what went missing
I can't help the fact you're different
And your smile is more than an image.
I know I fuck up a lot and I was out of line when I kissed you
I knew you were in love but I swore that I could fix you.
I put my cape away and stopped tryna be superman
Looked in the mirror to realize I'm just a fan.
But I'm a fan that wants you to be happy
One to pick you up when You're down
Even when I'm down
I'll find a way to lift you off the ground
Sacrifice you to the sky
Heaven lost an angel
Somebody asked you if it hurt
And you said no because your wings grew
So I'm down here
Just a fan
Waiting to spread my wings
Waiting for a blessing to help me grow into a better me.
- January 2015