Boogeyman. (27/07/18)

You’re a monster.

You and your smug generosity.

You’ve got me writhing in your kindness.

It’d be easier if you were the monster I want you to be.

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Be the brutal demon, one that I never want to see again.

Let me feel free from the toxicity you radiate

Let me be free of all the ugly on me, and all the ugly within.

Let me be bitter.

Let me see your ugliness,

Manipulative eyes you don’t have.

Let me see fangs under the twitch of your lip,

Let me see claws that scarred me time and time again.

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Hide beneath your silly disguise of some terrible monster

So I don’t have to see your humanity.

Make me see a devil when I see you

Because I hate your generosity

I hate your kindness and genuine eyes

I hate you’re not the monster I want you to be,

Because as long as you’re not him,

I want something to do with you.

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I wish I didn’t have to deal with you anymore

Because we seem to be toxic to each other, dear.

Disastrous friends.

And as much as I want to be your friend,

I don’t know how much longer I can handle the disaster of us.

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xx.