"I Do."

Dear Future Husband,

I probably think about you more than I should. But marriage is something to look forward to and I know ours will be good.

Time is ticking but I'm in no rush to find love. I trust that God will cross our paths in the right time. Probably in a way I haven't already thought of.

For some reason I keep thinking that you are hiding behind every corner I pass by. I keep thinking that the moment you stumble into my life everything will be better; everything will be alright. But truth is, I'm clumsy too. You are just as broken as me. I need to lean on God, not you. And for the sake of both of us that's something I pray I'll learn to do before I even meet you.

I imagine changing people's lives for the better will be a race to us. Our supply of fuel and new tires all coming straight from Jesus. Honestly, I pray that you are ahead of me in that race.

I have some fears... that I'll be an overbearing wife. After all, that's all I've seen in my life. The fear is so real that sometimes I cry. I want to respect you and let you lead but the woman in me would want to be controlling. The thought goes through my head when my parents are fighting that,"That's not going to be me. That's not going to be us."

But truth is, we will fight and we will disagree. So I pray that we work through our problems before we go to sleep, that something as simple as the dishes won't disturb the peace.

About the kids... they require lots of attention and care but I pray that we are still stuck together like glue at the end of the day. The mini me's and mini you's will have my motherly heart. Sadly, they will grow and let go. But I vowed to love you til death do us part.

Don't over work yourself. Find a happy medium between work and family. But even better, put God above everything (especially above me) and it'll all fall into place. I pray that God is your number one priority, that you allow Him to set the pace.

I look forward to every moment spent with you. From praying, Bible studies, deep conversations, vacations, football outrage's, and Netflix and chills, to paying the bills, buying a house, raising the kids, the death of loved ones, and everything else. I look forward to it all.

And, hun, when life throws its worst at us... I look forward to fighting back. I look forward to holding your hand through the toughest of times. I look forward to crying with you, laughing with you, learning with you, and living life with you. I look forward to cheering you on as you pursue your dreams. After all, I WILL be your #1 fan. That fan that does not shut up and nearly falls out of their seat while screaming but they don't care because they are COMMITTED to their team wether winning or losing. Yes, THAT fan.

We WILL spoil our grandkids 'cause we can! We'll give them everything we never gave our own kids and it'll be funny ; )

Life is full of adventures. The most delicate one of them all is growing old. Time itself is an adventure but what it does to a friendship is unexplainable. It's absolutely beautiful. Someday we will both be wrinkled and saggy but our love for each other will be as fresh as the day. As good as new. My love for you will only have tripled in size by the time we're eighty-two.

And, hun, despite all the odds stacked against us,

I love you.

And I look forward to the day I say, "I do."