Thank you note

Mama, you said I was beautiful,

You said that my lips were meant to be full,

So that when I kiss it would be unforgettable,

And that to another human being in this world, I will forever be memorable,

You complemented my almond shaped eyes,

Saying they were as sweet and innocent as the seas,

I remember when I complained about my blackness,

You told me God didn’t make you in the image of darkness,

And I said, well maybe its time for God to make a change,

For him to redo creation and make everyone the same,

You said, God made you the color of coal from which beautiful diamonds are formed,

The color of oil, the black gold that keeps people warm,

I desperately tried to get what you said to fit in,

But no matter what, I still felt ugly within,

Remember Timmy, my grade school crush,

I told you he called me ugly and you said child hush,

Mama, I was so naïve I believed in him,

Never wanted to be with the crowd I remained in the dim,

In my mind I thought, mama why did you lie,

I could’ve sworn I saw the holding back in your eyes,

And even though my first words were dada,

You never gave up on me mama,

Not when you discovered I was sexually active,

Nor that one Halloween night I came home with a detective,

And ever since the first day we met, like electrons,

I was bound to your nucleus, completely indivisible atom,

I was impressed by your ability to love selflessly and unconditionally,

I was attached to you, both physically and mentally,

You were and will forever be my superwoman,

Your powers might not be like the incredible, but your love was my healing medicine whenever and however I needed it,

You were never about drama like any other female,

And never once left my side like any other male,

And when I had my first heart break,

I swear I had a mini heart attack,

I collapsed and hugged myself as I cried,

But you, mama you cried more than I did,

And when I asked you why?

You said that my pain becomes alive in your eyes,

Mama your words will forever be tatted in my heart,

Remember Timmy? I never told you this but he once asked me to the homecoming dance,

Proudly I stood up, shoulders dropped, hands on my hips, head tilted and I said no,

Confused he confessed that he always thought I was cool,

I looked him deep in the eyes and I said, my mother did not raise no fool,

And when I turned around impersonating Tyra banks I felt like a gas tank,

Full of pride and joy,

And mama in five years when I am on the runway doing my walk,

I will talk the talk, then as I do my signature pose I will pause and think of you,

The only woman who can turn my grey sky blue,

You had made me comfortable in my own skin,

Made me believe in my own kin,

And I swear you are the most beautiful woman I know,

So here is my thank you note to you,

Because you are the right to my wrong,

The lyrics to my song,

The truth to my lie,

And will forever be my best friend till the day I die…..