This Annoying Murmur

It's ashame people don't really fxking know me. I'm such a joy! Nah, not really. I'm quite irritating with my constant babbling and brilliant thoughts. How I suddenly get deathly silent like I'm no longer present in this realm. Fading in and out of conversation like "yeah, I'm listening." Knowing damn well I haven't heard a word since the beginning. It's pretty hard to sew together a complete thought...there's so much going on up there. I never know what's going to come out my mouth. I try my best though. I'm pretty carefree. I start to feel bad when people express the obvious so much. "You really don't give a fxck," they say. Well, I thought that was apparent since the jump. Speaking of jump, I've been dying to get Gillz to play double Dutch but eh. Everyone's so busy growing up these days. I feel bad for them. It's something that we can't avoid, I suppose. Work is work to me. I don't feel you have to pretend to grow up before your time to appease Father Time. He's a deadbeat step dad so fxck him! Leaving us with gravity and shit. Blah, I'm moving on.