Time

We took our time in between wet white sheets.

I was the owner for your bed, of your pillow, of the sighs in your kisses, the heat of your body.

My hands took liberty and roamed all your edges. Your lips calmed in between mine, your eyes steady upon the motion of our bodies.

Like always desire betraying reason, your eyes asking for more, you and me in between a full moon's light.

My mistake was to want more, your mistake was to want me, our mistake was to get comfortable.

We took our time to get to know you, it was all about you.

So accept my apology when I refresh your memory of that first night, that has me longing for you. Just know the longing of you doesn't mean I want you, the longing of you is the love that escapes my pores.

So today I will try to cleanse my soul to love again, to find the person the world has waiting for me, without limitations or excuses, I will give myself the chance to discover new warmths inside, I will allow new hands to feel, new mouths to mark their way onto my center. I will allow me to live without you.

Even tho there's not one night that I don't wait for you to come back, you have full control of all me, I love you more than yesterday, & as I fight to forget you it's not enough, but in the midst of the war with your memory I will allow others to make new memories with my body and maybe someday your finger prints will be erased and I will be free.

-jossyflowers🌹