White Candles

Losing you was losing my breath,

This excruciating pain crushing my chest.

It was losing the flow of time, no longer believing in blue skies.

It was walking alone holding someone's hand, switching water to burning liquor.

Losing you was a complete darkness.

It was shutting my soul down, emptying my hands...

It was shallow beds, ragging through space.

Losing you turned into white candles celebrating angels...

Fighting the branding of the shame it left.

It was an empty womb with no hope. Draining a collection of salty tears past the feels of my pulsing heart.

Losing you is having to push past the dates that we're in.

Waking up in the morning without a reason, closing my eyes & reliving that day.

It is being haunted by the smallest loss of my life...

It was taking that big NO & in graving it in my grace.

Losing you is a promise that is so hard to keep.

It is acceptance of the times that held still my nights.

Losing you is emptying my pen with words that don't make sense.

-Jossy Flowers 🥀