Tired, very, very, VERY tired.

I am at my limit.

I am very tired.

Week-ends were not enough for me to recharge myself from all the fatigue-ness I have to endure 5 days prior.

Why am I complaining?

Who am I to complain?

Why am I not being grateful?

Because I AM SINCERELY TIRED.

Yes, I love studying. I wish I can study forever.

But now, I really wish that I can have a good rest.

I can't function normally like this.

My mind is in its 'shutting down' phase, where everything seems blurry. I tried and tried to restart it, but its very overheated and is still shutting down without my control.

More metaphors. I am sorry.

Maybe my mind is actually giving up on something, but my heart does not wanted that to happen, again.

Because who wants to be a failure?

Actually, secretly..., I wanted to.

Because failures give you something to hold on, a reason to continue your life, is it?

I want to be that black sheep, I want to be the daughter who is not like her other sisters.

I hate it when people put this kind of 'high expectations' on me.

It feels, DISGUSTING.

I want to be myself.

Hate me, but I just want to be myself.