Thoughts

My mind is always running with

Thoughts

All the time

Good

And

Bad

They're always running

Through my mind

Like they were in a marathon

My thoughts aren't clinical

They're not written on a notepad

And signed by a doctor

They're just there

Running all the time

I wonder if they get tired

These thoughts are filled with

Goods and bads

Filled with the "What ifs"

Filled with emotion

And all you get is this blank state

From these blue eyes

Because my thoughts seem to

Control my body

And I become immobile

But then

They stopped

At first I couldn't figure out why

Because it was only during

Certain periods

At first I was scared

Because I had a thought

Run through my mind saying

"Someone gave you drugs to stop

Us and to stop you"

So I was worried

And I had wished my thoughts

Would still run

Because they were the only things

That had ever stayed

I started doing experiments

To see why my thoughts would stop

So I could make sure I wouldn't

Do that thing so my thoughts could

Run

And I came to my conclusion

One night laying in my bed

With my thoughts

When they suddenly turned to

You

And that's when it hit me

You were stopping my thoughts

But that got me thinking

How could someone who is all

I think and dream about

Stopping something that has

Always been there

Making the one thing that had

Always stayed

Leave

Whenever we talk

Or

Whenever I see you

Or

Whenever your name is brought up

My thoughts stop

And that got me nervous

Because someone that could so

Easily leave

Is making the thing that I thought

Would always stay

Leave

How could that be possible

This hasn't happened with anyone

Else before

But then I thought

No one has ever made me

Feel the way you do

You're special

My thoughts even know it

Because that's all they are

Thoughts of

You