I've Been Faking It

Yesterday I spent a lot of time thinking about life and work and faith and the meaning of it all. It was anxiety inducing. I was tempted to give into cynicism and question whether anyone is living authentically or if we are just a bunch of fakes, especially those who speak the loudest about authenticity.

I was telling my wife some of this and she asked if maybe I spend too much time thinking about big picture ideas. She wondered if maybe it was time to start think about more practical things like raising our kids and our financial priorities. Yeah, she's probably right.

Then last night was youth group. As I stood there singing with the teens I realized that really we're all doing the best we can and I decided that if some of us are faking it maybe that's okay. "Fake it 'till you make it," right? Even Paul the Apostle said he hadn't arrived and he was just pressing on, hoping to make it someday.

I'm an analytical person. Sometimes that's not such a good thing. I often catch myself trying to guess what people are really up to. I'm always trying see what's just below the surface. But a lot of the time people are just scared and hurting and just trying to catch a break. There's no hidden agenda, except to survive.

I have decided that it's okay not to have everything figured out. Because when Jesus said "follow me," he didn't tell me where he is taking me, because the destination isn't as important as following him. When I try to guess the destination and find a short cut, I get into trouble. I think the lesson Jesus want me to learn is stop overthinking everything, take each day as it comes and enjoy the journey.