Moments ✋

Oh momma how I wished you understood.

Your mistakes will never be mine.

Your heartbreaks will never be mine.

You are my creator, my teacher, but my life path will never be yours.

Oh momma how I wished you understood.

I never took the streets in dislike of your beliefs.

I never drank a 40 to get back at you.

See I would have never kissed a man you'd disapprove of, but I fell in love.

Left my books in the past, changed my art for cans, left a future for a present, without hope of a future.

See momma you where right, that day you said you saw my life slip away.

The hurt you said you saw in my eyes...

but you where never around to help momma.

You would just yell, and scream, and close the doors.

You left me alone, said I needed tough love.

See momma, I never done any of the things you made up in your head.

I never held a gun before, I never tried a drug before, I never did roam the streets alone.

My mistake was to love a man who's life is cuffed to a system, of disagreement and disparity, who's melancholy is solved with a substance that eases the pain, who's hope of a better life laid in my eyes.

I was all the good to his bad soul, but I've never done anything you wouldn't approve of.

You thought me to love with out question, to accept without reason, to fight for what's mine, & i did & I failed.

See momma I love you with all my heart, but this life shaped me, mistake after mistake, street after street, to see what I've seen momma not my proudest moment. But I respect you and I forgive you, for turning your back on me when I needed you the most.

See I danced with the devil and fell in love, but I value myself momma and I walked away.

For I learned that the pain is carried inside and that unconditional love is not always the best love.

Oh momma how I wished you valued yourself and understood my mistakes are not a reflection of you.

-jossyflowers🌹