Choose to Stay

The following was written in the place of those struggling with suicide.

You wake up and your day begins as normally as any other person in this world. But the same frequently asked question in your head wrestles with you again. Is today the day? Will you do it or will you bail out? Is today worth living at all? Should you even give myself another chance to think about it...? But these questions in your head are just your way to stall.

You look like a normal person. You wear normal things and talk to normal people. You talk a lot! But not about this one thing. You’ve mastered the smile and laugh that deceives them. You’ve mastered the happy character that they see. You can laugh and say “I want to kill myself!” and with you they’d be laughing.

To life in general you wish you could adapt. Failed attempts just leave you feeling trapped.

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if that’s you and you’re here tonight, you need to hear this, but first let me just say this, I am so... sorry... you do not deserve this. With your life comes a place and purpose. You can let those tears surface.

Did you know, that if you go, Emotionally your mom will go too. Along with your friends though only a few. Along with your dog. I know he’ll miss you. Can tell by the way he kiss you. If only you knew! Don’t you get it, this world needs you! Don’t believe for a second, the lies that it feeds you. I know it feels like it has defeated you.

but Stay.

Because you are not just valued, you are victorious. A world changer, difference maker, problem solver, great thinker, strong influencer, Quite the adventurer, you are. The cuts in your skin only left a scare. You’re a warrior for what you’ve endured this far.

Stay.

Because pain goes away. And on behalf of the person that beat you down with the words they say, I apologize. I’m sorry that the hurt lead to the final decision, that you’ve come to the conclusion that taking your own life is now the only solution. You’re unconsciously creating your own personal pollution. But your life is the most expensive thing the world has in its possession. The cheapest thing you own is your depression. Yet you let it own you and teach you a lesson to think of yourself less and less and less and you’re super depressed, like I see you stuck in that mess. And I’m so sorry that its come to this.

You can’t sleep at night. You’re constantly putting up this fight. Hesitant to pick up that knife. But I’m begging you now, please don’t give up on your life. It’s not worth the pain you will leave behind. You won’t be the one to pick up the body they find. For months and years, you won’t be the one that cries and cries all because you believed the lies that the only way out was suicide,

Please, Stay.

Because I have something very important to tell you. If you are still struggling with this

Tell someone...

Someone that cares about you because many do.

Choose

To

Stay.