Rian Smith

Druggie

you always were my favorite drug. you lifted me higher than mary jane ever could. cloud nine, just you and i. with you i was in a mental paradise, palm trees and a soft breeze only that could be achieved when you were with me. if i could i'd melt you down, pour you into a syringe and inject you into my veins. i'd take the pain coated in ecstasy from having your intensity within me, spreading to the most sensitive nerves within my being. my eyes would dilate, stretching past their limits, bursting so they could see the corners of the universe exploring the molecules of the milky way and chastising the stars for not shining as bright as you do even in the dark of the night when you feel warmer than the sun but your touch never burnt me. i hate coming down from off of you, being sucked down a drain dropped back to earth, dazed and disoriented. craving more, unable to face reality because your world was so much better than that of my own. the colors much more vivid, the smells much more enticing, the taste of you was to die for. i'd rather lie beneath the earth and let my soul resurrect itself from the soil hoping it'd bring me back up into our little oasis because only there i felt whole. without you in my system i am nothing, this world is bore. you took me across galaxies even if for a short while. you were my escape. i miss the feeling, and i'm longing for it. i'm a fein for your touch, such dexterity in your ability to take control of me. i'm not oblivious to the actuality that you're no good for me, that you'll be the end of me, that you'll break me down and smoke me to ashes as i've done to you, i'll be vapor lost in the atmosphere because of you. i'll be made obsolete because of you. i know the truth and it hurts but when i feel this way you're always the one i run back to.. just one hit away, one shot away, one sniff away.


...just take me away.