Teenage Poetess Angst

there are times when i can't write

because i'm blinded by tears

there are times when i can't write

because my hands won't stop shaking

so often i lose control

i lose myself like leaf in the breeze

forced to go wherever the wind takes me

forced to go to where i'd prefer not

i can't seem to catch a grip

or control where i go

i want to be a mighty ship

because no matter how strong the sea is

i will always refuse to sink

there are times i can't write

because it hurts my heart too much to think

there are times i can't write

because my throat dries until i can't breathe

there are times i can't write

because its too dark in my mind

there are times i can't write

because i won't open my eyes

and sometimes i just don't know why

it hurts so much for me

i try to realize i'm not alone

and it won't always be like this.

i'll gain control one day

and everything will be okay