My Angel

My angel...

My past hasn't been so pure...

You believed in me...

You waited for me...

I screamed at you...

I hated you...

I hated myself...

My angel...

I wasn't ready to be saved...

I didn't know I was capable of love...

I didn't know you fought for me...

I cried for you...

I was a bad girl...

I didn't know god sent angels to people like me...

You watched over me !

I was scared of me !

I couldn't see past the past...

My angel...

You waited so patiently for me...

To get it right...

I got it wrong...

I was wrong ...

My head was gone...

I drank to subdue the pain...

I know you saw me...

I know you heard what I said...

I prayed that god would forgive me...

Silent...

I waited for a sign that he heard me...

My angel...

God doesn't make mistakes...

I didn't believe in myself...

I pushed the good away...

I was only able to see the bad...

No hand held ...

No emotions felt...

I prayed that god would forgive me...

Silent...

I waited for a sign that he heard me...

My Angel...

Build me up..

Make me strong...

Watch over me...

Show me the right way...

I've gotten it wrong so many times...

I just wanna get it right...

Crying at night ...

I know my angel watches over me...

Console me...

This is all taking a tole on me...

Don't touch me !

I wanna be alone...

I feel so alone...

Screaming out loud...

I wanna be free...

Trapped...

Can't escape this life...

I guess I have to deal with it...

Hard pill to swallow...

Life....

As we know it seems so pleasant...

So delicate...

Like a rose...

So soft and sweet...

Eyes closing ...

in this drowsy state of mind...

I wish I was out of my mind...

Then I wouldn't find the time...

To hurt...

The betrayal...

I should have been loyal...

To you...

My angel...

I know that god gives the hard battles to his strongest soldiers....

Watch over me...

I may walk down paths that are unknown...

Please keep me strong...

So that I may go on ...

Forgive my past...

Help me with my future...

I'm not sure of my destiny...

But I hope your here with me...

My angel...

I prayed that god would forgive me...

Silent ...

I waited for a sign that he heard me...