Pretty Hurts ...

Time and yet time again...

Looking in the mirror and not seeing good enough...

Why can't I be like that ?...

Pointing to the television...

Maybe that's what blurred my vision ..

The boys like bigger...

Yet I'm smaller...

I wish I could be taller...

But the men adore smaller...

What about me ?

What I like ?

My vision is getting smaller ...

Dying to live the life...

Crying to ease the pain...

Can't fix everything...

But I'm trying...

Wanting to voice my opinion ...

But they don't like smart mouths...

I pout inside...

But I put a smile on for the world...

Time and yet time again...

Looking in the mirror and not seeing good enough...

Wanting to break down...

Screaming at myself...

You can't keep this going...

In my head knowing ...

But I will continue to...

Paint my face...

Extend my hair...

Make sure I'm bright enough...

Crying to my mother...

I don't know what I'm not doing right...

I want to be perfect !...

You will never know how it feels...

To want perfection so bad ...

And knowing that you will never achieve it...

Believe it....

To many things to worry about...

Your such a pretty girl...

They say...

My mouth says thank you...

But my head yells....

Bigger butt , slimmer waist , longer hair , smaller feet , lighter eyes ....

I think I'm going crazy...

Time and yet time again...

Looking in the mirror and not seeing good enough...

Soft soul...

Tough skin...

Cruel world...

Different girl...

I am her...

Sexuality...

Personality...

Confidence...

Lost in the cold world ...

Torn between the two...

I wanna be me ...

But I like the girl on tv...

Thinking she could be me !

Perfection ...

What a distraction ....

Giving you all of my thoughts...

No retraction...

I want to be what I like...

But I know what matters is what they like...

Time and yet time again...

Looking in the mirror and not seeing good enough...

Lost attention...

Breaking mirrors...

Destroying images...

Ripping up the magazines...

Yelling I just wanna fit my jeans...

Dying to be thicker...

But the models are thinner...

Those models aren't me ...

I have tattoo's...

Does that make me good enough ?

Are my teeth straight enough ?

Is my hair long enough ?

Am I light enough ?

Am I dark enough ?

I am chasing a dream that I can't seem to wake up from !...

Pretty...

Define me...

Exotic...

Describe me...

Dull...

Don't confine me...

Slutty

Not what I appear to be...

Acting older ...

But I'm just a baby...

Who will speak up for me...

Hiding behind lashes , make up , pink nails , hair extensions, & sexy outfits....

Hoping you see pretty ...

Crossing my I's and dotting my T's...

I want you to like me ! ...

Trying on many outfits...

Taking them all off !

Not pretty !

Not sexy !

Not grown up !

Not elegant !

I want you to like me !

Time and yet time again...

Looking in the mirror and not seeing good enough...

Hair to tight...

Jeans to tight...

Shirt to tight...

Shoes to high...

Nails to long...

I wanna be left alone !...

I wanna run my finger thru my real hair...

Scared that they might not like what's really here...

Comments on things I already know ...

Add to the struggle ...

More like a burden ...

I carry it by myself ....

Who will save me from me ?

They can't see , what's wrong with me...

Perfection...

Yet that's not what I see in my reflection...

Time and yet time again..

Looking in the mirror and not seeing good enough...