Venting

Feels funny that yesterday you were

All that I could think about...

Just yesterday you were so perfect to me...

In the blink of an eye ,

You lost my trust...

Feels funny starting a life with you...

Every time you pick up your phone

My head is now playing games with me...

I wonder who your texting ,

I wonder who your entertaining,

And who’s getting your attention...

instead of me!

I hate that I have trust issues...

Honesty these days is such a rare trait...

All I ever wanted in a relationship

was for partner to be honest to me no matter how bad it hurt me...

Because I knew that if you could look the one you love in the eye and lie...

To save them from hurt,

That you could lie about anything...

I didn’t want a love that lied...

But these days i guess my expectations

Are to high....

Do i settle because I’m afraid of being alone ?

Don’t know if I’m afraid of being alone

Or I’m scared of the world thinking ,

I cant get it right...

Emotional but i can’t help it...

I love hard...

Maybe I shouldn’t put all my eggs in one basket...

Maybe i should think like a man...

maybe i should do you how you do me?

How can you walk out on the one you love?

Maybe I’m just not the one you love.