Love

Giving my all never felt so tiring...

How do you love someone else

When you can't even find the strength to love

Yourself ?

Feels like I can't function...

Just wanna give up...

But then something inside me says keep fighting

I'd be better if you just went ahead

and broke my heart ...

See because I knew it would happen sooner...

But I feel like your putting it off till later...

Trust issues consume my mind...

Where you at?

Who you with?

I know you ain't shit...

Think I'm driving myself crazy...

Unless when you met me I was already crazy...

Say I'm done and then you call....

And I'm right back where I started...

Say I'm not picking up your calls...

I let the phone ring three times and

I wonder where you might think I'm at...

I answer and smile...

Knowing I hate you...

But I love you in the same breath....

I keep asking god for signs...

I wanna let go but I can't...

I was doing good....

Seems like I'm cursed...

With the worst luck in love....

Wanna drown in sorrow....

But your always there to pull me out....

Wanna jump off of the height

of all my conclusions ...

But your always there to talk me down....

Why won't you just let me go ?

It would be easier without me...

It would be less stress without me...

I hate me...

I can't find me

So its impossible to love you...

I'll never trust you...

because my mind doesn't want me to...

Keep settling for less than...

When I know I'm more than....

Why won't you just leave me alone....

I just wanna be left alone...

I hate love....

I hate love....

And the worst part is....

I always feel love....