Suppress
allow yourself to feel,
just this once
allow yourself
to cry
to scream
to kick
and ask higher powers why?
allow yourself that, at least.
you bury new emotions
with the bones of emotions
that waited for your attention
for so long that they died
an unhealthy cycle
that’s eating away at you
now more than ever
you keep erasing parts of the ghost
but never all of it
keeping just a small memento
so in the case that it is revived
you can say “see, i waited”
you hope for a change in stagnant winds
an improbable outcome
that you’d bet your life on
even though, you know you’d lose
you don’t seem to care
you don’t fear having nothing left
your type of love is dangerous
it is relentless
it knows no bounds
it has no limits
because if there was a chance,
even the slightest,
that it might work
it was worth doing.
but who’s gonna do that for you.