Girl Next Door

Many times I find myself thinking on what could have been...

Back then so young and minds running free...

I still remember the first time you said you loved me ...

My heart stopped beating , I had waited so long to hear those words ...

More then my next door neighbor ...

More the a phone call away...

You created a standard that I would never find...

You left a space that I could never fill...

You opened something that I couldn't close..

My bestfriend...

Never had that feeling , only just been wishing ...

Vowed to never love again...

Time and yet time again...

We crossed paths...

Meetings in the street...

Talking under the stars...

About our life as stars...

Wish I could go back and tell you how I felt...

The guilt still lives with me...

Hurt that you gave her , everything I asked for !

Hurt that you shared your moments with her...

Cried for all the times you said it was me that you had eyes for...

I can still remember at night everything I wished for...

Just you...

Hated you for all the shit we yelled to each other when we got angry...

Seems like you hated me...

But when you touched me , felt like you had control of me...

It all started on a school bus...

Who knew I'd have the biggest crush ?...

I was wrong , I tried to move on...

But you had her...

I couldn't watch...

The crazy thing is I still loved you...

I still hoped for you...

Still looked out my window , but now it was her and you...

I guess you never know how to let go...

Until you see the one you love...

Love somebody else...

Publicly ...

Distracted...

But I guess alls fair in love and war...

I just always thought it would be me instead of her...

But I guess I was just...

The girl next door ...