Can't Say

I got a question..

How can you stay in love

Knowing that the person you love,

Doesn't love you back ?

Unrequited love...

Or is it dumb in love ,

A heart only has so many wounds it can bare...

Trying not to lose, at a game called love...

But I find myself losing everyday...

Sad songs and alcohol

To numb the pain...

Crying to drown myself in sorrow....

Why does the lord hate me so bad ?

Or why doesn't he hear my cries ?...

If not him... who can save me from myself?

Don't want to be alone...

Yet I feel that I'll forever be alone...

When I first met you , I could feel your energy...

Now everything is like walking on eggshells...

I feel like I'm here and you're there...

In a king size with you and still feel alone

Empty and depleted...

I gave you all of the things I needed...

The kisses have stopped...

Your hugs have gone missing...

The I miss you's have stopped...

Your energy is distant...

I just met the right person at the wrong time...

As usual...

Finding excuses for you

to allow you more time...

To lead me on...

Can't say I'll wait on you...

If I leave can't say that I'll be back...

Can't say that I won't hate you...

I know I'll get over it...

But for now I hate you...

Sweet words are now replaced...

by sour looks and nonchalant attitudes...

Who would have known that a dream

could turn into a nightmare?

Worst thing about time...

is you can never get it back...

Worst thing about loving...

Is that you can't get it back...

Wish I could erase all of these memories

Memories that haunt me...

Memories that will come back to me

Late at night...

Then I'll toss and turn

And think on what could have been...