Hallucinating

Love use to be so easy...

Never thought about being hurt...

Seems like everything went wrong....

How do you fix the lies and hurt ?...

I tried to forgive the past so I could love you....

How do you erase years of pain ?...

I really wanted to love you the right way...

Yelling , screaming, crying

Scared to lose...

Is this a game ?...

No, but I feel like I gotta win...

If you don't love me the same, let me go...

But you don't seem to wanna let go !

Feels like I'm in a desert ...

Walking miles to find your love...

Just when I think I found it...

My mind reminds me that

I'm only hallucinating...

Running after this dream...

I think I'm chasing...

Am I doing to much ?..

How do I not care ?...

How do I not stare...

when I feel like God designed you for me?...

How do I not feel ?...

How do I not feel for the person I fell for?...

Wish I could erase you....

Wish I didn't know what loving you felt like...

So then I wouldn't be fixated...

on feeling you closer...

Can't sleep...

Just up replaying our moments in my head...

All the fights , kisses, sex, and nights I held you...

You just act like I'm nothing...

You just act like this was nothing...

Wish I was something...

Wish I was something that mattered to you...

Guess that's what karma feels like...

I couldn't sleep last night...

So I prayed....

I prayed for you !

I prayed that one day you'd understand...

Understand that I loved you more....

That I needed you more...

Feels like my heart has reopened...

An old wound , but it still feels fresh !

Look at this mess....

Things would be easier if I never met you...

With them I can walk away....

With you for some reason...

my heart keeps telling me stay...

My head tells me to leave...

But in my heart I want to believe...

That this was all real and I wasn't

Hallucinating....