Laying with the enemy

Who knew how bad love could hurt?

Loving so hard and falling so fast...

Crying because the reality hurts...

That person I wanted to spend my life with

Could never love me back...

In our on way...

Ego and pride

Restless nights I couldn’t sleep

Breaking down because I lost our child...

Was it the stress , was it the fights ,

was it the late nights , was it the road?

I can’t say!

How do you grieve when the world is watching?

How do you continue on when the only thing that made me smile was now gone?

The emptiness could never be explained

Nothing could stop the pain.

Yet , I smile because those lights never stop flashing...

They don’t understand I’m human...

They don’t see that I’m hurt too

I have to be strong because

You were still here and needed me too

I was angry and lost...

Those hands that once consoled me

Held me , protected me ,

Were now being used to bruise me...

Now being used to hurt me...

Those lips that once spoke so highly of me now are being used to belittle me

The I love you’s got traded for

I don’t need you’s

The I can’t live with out you’s

Were replaced with you’re nothing to me..

Love doesn’t feel like this...

Real love , yea that’s what it felt like...

So many signs but still I stayed

Because I thought you would change

You told me sorry

And I believed you!

You said never again , and I believed you...

You said you would get help

And I believed you...

You said I was different and I believed you!

They all told me to leave but how could

I leave when I felt like you needed me?

Foolishly I still cry because my heart is broken

Waiting for a sorry that I know will never come

Waiting for you to realize the damage

But you never will...

So deep in your pride , you’ll risk it all...

Or maybe it was nothing at all?

Behind those lights and cameras

I thought I knew who you were...

And in the blink of an eye

I didn’t know you at all...

The look in your eyes said it all...

Temporary forevers I’m so use to them...

Said you were different from them...

But you were worst than them...

I thought I knew who you were

And in the blink of an eye

I didn’t know you at all...

Every fear and concern you used against me

Every insecurity you turned into a reality

Love seems to be your game

And I couldn’t ask questions

Or you were mad at me!

Why couldn’t I see

that you were just bad for me

Guess sometimes we lay with the enemy

And don’t even know it...