Incapable

After a couple of heart breaks

Your heart doesn’t hurt the same...

What a shame...

Who should take the blame ?

Not knowing my own strength...

Settling for the worst...

Swear sometimes being me...

Is a gift and a curse...

Swore the last time was the last time...

And the last time i said to my self...

This is the last time...

Yet I’m afraid to let go...

Afraid that if i give up...

Someone else will luck up...

But i just feel like giving up...

Love shouldn’t be this hard...

Thought you would realize there

Was too much on the line...

I see that I’m just not her...

Even though I’ve tried...

And i can’t pretend you are him...

You just felt right & i thought i could

Adjust my heart...

Never should have to adjust...

Never was love just lust...

Emotionally attached

to someone who is bad for me

Since i met you I’ve been fighting for this love...

Starting to think it’s not you

it’s me...

These are daddy issues...

Broken heart that i misused...

Yet still i rise...

Before the world i stand humbled...

Before you i stand broken...

Yet you continue

to try and break me even more...

Love shouldn’t be this much of a battle....

Fighting for a love that was never meant for me...

You could never be the man i need you to be...

Incapable of putting anyone first....

Tired of trying to make you...

Hurt me bad and still i can’t hate you...

Lie to me and i still tell you the truth...

Leave me when i need you....

And yet i still stand by you...

Nothing like the man i first met....

How did we get this far and end up so far apart ?

How can you cheat ya main girl?

And treat these hoes ?

Incapable of putting me first...

I see...

Before you i stood broken...

Hoping that you would try to repair the damage...

Realized that i have to fix myself

before i love again...

Before you i stood in need of love...

Yet i ended up giving more love than i could...

Before you i stood ...needing to be held....

Can’t remember laying in your arms...

Yet i can recall all the times you laid in mines...

I kept giving love....

hoping that i would receive some back...

I realized that you were incapable

of giving that kind of Love back....

At least back to me...

I stood before you in need of protection...

The world can be a cold place...

And yet you made it even colder...

Selfish....

And incapable of giving me what i need.

And yet still its still kinda hard to let go...

Well at least i thought so....