REAL FRIENDS

Oh how happy we use to be...

Many times we put aside our feelings...

To hold on to someone else's...

Saying we would be the best of friends

Because that's where love begins...

Knowing that in the end

you had every sign...

Why push me away if you want me to stay?

Why beg to stay... if you want me to go?

How can someone once so filled

Become so empty?

How do you seem to have your whole world

And in the blink of an eye

Everything you seem to care about fades away?

Guess that's why...

we shouldn't make people our world

I was changing me to find you...

Thought that I could be better for you...

In actuality I ended up losing myself...

Don't know how we became a mess...

Wanted us to be less stress...

But when feelings are involved

How do you resolve ?

Can tell by your body language

That we are done...

Friendship undone...

Yet a little piece in the back of my mind

Seems to want you... to want to stay....

How is this my fault?

How am I stuck trying to figure out what I did?

I have to accept my part...

I never gave you boundaries

I only accepted yours,

I never set my demands

I only hoped I met yours...

I never required anything from you...

But always asked about your requirements...

This wasn't about you and another woman

This was about me

not knowing where I stood

Because a woman in the know is confident...

And while the earth

seemed to be falling from under me...

I still tried planting seeds...

Seeds that you never wanted to see bloom.

Stuck in different time zones....

A lot of trust issues so my hearts gone...

Thought that when I found you...

I would find it in my self....

But you only reminded me....

That I wasn't ready for this kind of love...

You said you needed time....

And I felt like I was wasting time....

In our heads we already have spots filled...

Guess I just didn't have an important spot.

Every girl just wants to feel like the only one....

Territorial because love always ends bad...

Feels like a horror story to think back on love...

Hope that in another life

we meet again....

And if we do

that maybe

we could be real friends....