Haunting

The night haunts me...

Restless I keep my eyes open!

Because when I shut them my past taunts me...

Voices from the memories playing in my head...

Tears suddenly fall onto my bed...

I pray that God forgives a sinner like me...

I toss and turn in the night...

Asking myself how do I make things right...

My past is bullying me...

Someone help me please , it's stalking me !

When I say I'm happy... There it is

When I find new love... There it is

When I say I want to change ... There it is

How can I run ?

I'm too tired to keep fighting...

Do I let this mess win ?

I hear the emptiness mostly at night...

I try to fill it with music , sex , and alcohol...

The next morning the emptiness is back !

I feel I'm filling a void...

What that void is I don't know....

I hear the emptiness mostly at night

Screaming at me...

This is your fault....

When I look in the mirror I'm lost as to who I am...

The world see's beautiful

Yet I see disaster....

The night haunts me...

Restless I keep my eyes open

Because when I shut them my past taunts me...

Pictures of the things I've done...

People I hurt...

Lies I've told... And the love I've lost...

Some would say all is fair in love and war

But I feel like I've not felt love only war...

At war with the world and myself...

Wish I could put all this to an end...

But then I feel as though I'll be right back where I began....

The night haunts me...

Restless I keep my eyes open

Because when I shut them my past taunts me.