Enemy

As the world stares I hide the pain

With a smile...

Because if they knew the pain and heart ache

Would they judge me...

Use to hide the pain with alcohol...

Sounds good right now...

But I’ve come so far to go back...

Do you know how it feels

To lay with the enemy?

Do you know how it feels

to tell your secrets to the enemy?

Do you know how it feels

To cry and think your being consoled

But the enemy was learning your weakness...

Do you know how it feels

To lose child after child ?

And their was no time to grieve

Because the world was watching

And instead of going through it ,

You wanted to act like it never happened

Because to make yourself believe it never happened would mean you never fell in love

With this so called enemy.

Fake smiles

Fake love...

Wiping tears before I head to the spotlight

I’m not weak , I’m hurt

There is a difference....

My heart feels cold

Nobody can calm this storm...

Now I see why

storms are named after people...

The damage is done and I can’t turn back....

So deep in love

And I was drowning...

Not once did you reach out to save me...

Never once did you say baby are you ok

So hurtful to express your feelings

Only to have them thrown back in your face

So hurtful to really wanna love...

But you end up loving the enemy