How much

Isolated but from who ?

The world it seems so big...

Ran away from fears and love...

Angry at the world....

For so long I couldn't face my own reality....

Liquor to numb the pain...

Sex to fill alive...

Am I still here ?

How do you keep letting them in?...

How do you keep picking your self up ?...

Replacing hate with temporary forevers...

Yes I know you don't love me...

Yes I know this too shall pass

Yes I know that you weren't mines...

So badly I wanted to feel real....

So badly I wanted to feel love...

I wanted to share excitement....

Even with the world at your feet

You can still feel abandoned...

Traveling the world....

Experiencing life...

But still missing the factor

that makes it all worth it

Wish they didn't think I was perfect...

Wish he thought I was worth it...

Worth more than a night in bed...

Worth more than dinner and a movie...

Worth more than a trip out the country...

Worth more than money could buy...

Worth more than what mets the eye...

But still I know you would ask

How much...

If love was for sale

I would have purchased it

Long ago...

Always thought people where created in two's

Wonder if god made an exception for me?

Sometimes I feel like I'm cursed...

So many broken hearts along the way...

So many men have loved me

long before I loved myself...

So many men still love me

despite me not loving myself....

Felt like I had nothing to live for....

The only man I loved was taken...

Heart was empty...

Who taught me how to love ?

Who taught me how to dismiss?

Who taught me to walk away?...

For some reason I still can't give up

Give up on me

Give up on you

Give up on us...

Give up on them...

I just wanna give up....

Seems like I'm fighting an endless battle...

Hate crying...

Hate trying...

Hate seeing the good in you

even when I know there is no good...

How much does it cost to love your self

Love your self more then they could

Love your self like you should...