Chris Bleakney
Usually lost and trying to find myself one word at a time.
I’ve lived my life hooked on the blue pill. In grained in me (like most of us) from youth Education, career, family and white picket fence The American Dream, right? Like a program from youth, it ...
Babygirl, Don’t try understand why You didn’t deserve it There was nothing you did wrong It was about the pain Within him, never about you I know because I was him once And I apologize for us both
Loneliness frightens me Because it’s the only time I’m trapped alone with a monster
I owe you an apology I was so mad at you Anger I couldn’t really understand But then I realized You didn’t deserve that You were always true to you My anger was misplaced I was mad at myself ...
People are simple They always show you Exactly who the are The hard part Is to see them As they are And not who you Want them to be Most of my battles Are lost on the latter Therefore, I own The r...
Maybe if you had only lied to me And I had just believed you I could forgive myself But the way you worked me And convinced me To lie to myself on your behalf Is a scar I’ll carry till death
I date brunettes Because karma is a blonde She always brings what I deserve And those lessons hurt the most
Believe me when I tell you That our souls were Tangled Intertwined, as though woven Twisted so tightly Wrapped in one another And completely bound together We strengthened one another And lived...
She isn’t missing But she is missing from me She’s laying right beside me Yet her soul is in a different place I’m not even sure if she’s aware But I could feel her absence the very moment she dr...
I could survive without her But living life would be over
Nothing is as lonely As the truth that You have always known But refused to believe
One day a little piece of my soul chipped away She saw it before me, she warned me of it Her pleas to pay attention fell on deaf ears Like broken glass my chip turned to cracks Deepening under the...
If I hadn’t found her when she was broken Then I never would of understood The way every curve, every straight line, Every jagged edge, every irregular piece Was perfectly designed To make her d...
Babygirl, He wasn’t a mistake He wasn’t the wrong one He was exactly what you needed To point you in the right direction cb...
I lost another good one today This time would be different than before I would fight for her; appeal to her Pour my heart out like never before, for her Everything I ever wanted to say, clear as d...
She was the light I always needed I was the dark place in front of her That only she understood Together we became beautiful cbleakney
If she’d ask me, I’d tell her that I’ve gotten more wrong than right, If I could change the past I would, If the end was tomorrow, tonight would be her’s, Loving her I would never get wrong.
If had tasted my words before I spit them out The way I tasted her skin as she lay in my bed I would of swallowed them whole and never gave them life And I wouldn’t lay here starving deprived ...
I wish I could write my emotions like lines of poetry They would flow effortlessly and beautiful From quill to paper they would be flawless The would scream of unparalleled joy From conception t...
Babygirl, At least let me breathe on my own My soul is so consumed by you that my body has lost control of even its involuntary actions I breathe only when you breathe into me My heart beats only...
The worst part of that betrayal Was having to look myself in eye And admit... That I knew the whole time
My demons are alive and well They came to visit again last night I don’t remember much of their time I just find remnants of the chaos Dried blood that ran from my nose Empty pill bottles strewn ab...
You call me a control freak Maybe I am Is it really so bad? You pretend not to like it But as soon as my hand Slightly tightens around your throat I see a different woman in your eyes Your reluctan...
My soul died with him that day I wish my body had gone with it I can’t feel the noose But it’s harder to breathe every day The world is a lonely place, When your body bears no scars But you’re de...
For the pandering poet: Her scars are not for your likes. Yet her pain has become your meal ticket You hurl verbal band aids at her fresh wounds With your one line wit, pretending to know her But...
The most reckless thing I ever did to my life Was refuse to love her recklessly cbleakney
Our eyes crossed paths again I wish that I knew her I feel as though I have for years It’s a strange familiarity I lose time in moments when she’s near As if I drift away Only to return to consci...
I watch as your lips move nonstop But for the first time I hear no sound I guess I've finally grown deaf to you Deaf to the same sad lies and excuses For so long I craved words from your lips The...
Distance, Why is it you exist? Her and I offer no place for you But you seem to insist You impose your will upon us Yet we try to ignore our foe Shouldn’t you make the heart fonder? Why is it you ...
It’s been a week since I’ve seen her Seems like such a small time frame to consider Lovers part daily more severely burdened by time But, have you ever gone a week without breathing I need her mo...
On the day she arrived He thanked the Lord for her presence
Of course I know you’re the queen How could I forget, you remind me daily So many days spent bowed at your feet So much time wasted living in retreat Why stomp on the red carpet rolled out for y...
Its another sleepless night without her. Not because she broke my heart, Nor that I won’t see her again, Simply that she is out of my reach. I can’t feel her body rise and fall with each breath, I...
Love, Why must you play this cruel game Is it irony that you seek? Only to show me what I cannot hold
She’s a beautiful girl with a hesitant heart Independent; she carries the weight of the world No she doesn't have to, but chooses to still When I see her, I see the end of the rainbow She is that ...
Babygirl, I've lived my life under grey clouds Raging unrelenting storms that know no mercy Some sent by nature, others self inflicted Each seemingly more vicious than the last But in the midst ...
I spent another night without her Each one gets heavier than the one before Whiskey helped for a day or two But that just dulls the pain It’s not the pain keeps me awake at night It’s the life tha...
It’s easy to tell her she’s beautiful, beauty is natural on her; I always remind her she’s my best-friend, She’s my favorite to do life with; It’s effortless to tell her she looks amazing When she’...
I always know when she’s near. I don’t have see her, or hear her, I can just feel her. She is like gravity for me, I do not see nor understand her force, Yet I am always powerless against it ...
There are no days or nights without her The sea crashing to the shore makes no sound Time itself fails to pass There is no joy or fear in her absence She is life that I desire The heat from the...
I sit at the edge beach and watch the tide bring the waves ashore Im reminded of her love It comes with purpose and desire, Unrelenting in its quest It crashes over me in beautiful chaos, surround...
Irony must be life's dark comedy A subtle yet painful reminder of things taken for granted You search desperately for the man you once had You long for his caring, nurturing, providing ways You wa...
I am not who think that I am Nor will I be who you want me to be I've found comfort in the dark Try as we may, we can never flee
I thought I had escaped your wrath I Had gotten away from the past I feel the chill of you near All I can do is gasp
Time, I've hated you for so long As if on purpose or some cruel game You were so slow to bring what I sought Always so quick to take what I loved We have opposed one another for so long There has b...
Do you know that feeling, That feeling you get in the moment of clarity right after you experience Deja vu? The feeling of having been somewhere that you've never actually been, but immediately kn...
I lived in the dark before her The cover of the dark hid my insecurities I could see nothing, so I missed nothing The cold of the dark numbed my senses and slowed my heart I felt nothing I becam...
Beautiful girl, I know that he hurt you I see it when you're hesitant to let your eyes lock with mine I feel it when you deny my embrace I notice when you're body is close to mine and your puls...
She is cold Not of the world, but Because of it Her heart is ice, she has been denied the heat she desires She is not the problem, she is the product She has been burned, she fears the heat from th...
In her eyes I see the eye of the storm She is the calm in the midst of chaos Even in her silent presence I am deaf to the world around me Her voice soothes me while her touch strengthens me With he...
It's late, So exhausted she couldn't keep her eyes open I lay next to her as she sleeps peacefully Her head rests against my body, her rhythmic breath is just enough to break the silence Even as...
She is addicting When she looked into my eyes I could feel her touch my soul Her smile made all the world around us fade away Listening to her voice calmed the war waging inside my head Her laught...
The fire awakens I always see the fire in her eyes Yet my gas soaked hands can't resist a touch And even as my soul is scorched I'm lost in the brilliance of the blaze like passing a scene of cha...
It was dark and lonely I was overcome by the most uncomfortable silence I can still feel the painful cold, piercing me There was no light in any direction I was lost and confused My chest grew ...
Hold on babygirl, hold on I feel the pain, when I look in your eyes But I promise, this pain will fade in time And I got you forever
They became toxic On the same day That she had to love For the both of them cbleakney
He burned as such a brilliant blaze She couldn’t resist reaching for him Now her hands bear the most magnificent scars That only she finds the beauty in ...
I saw her again We didn’t speak, we didn’t need to There were no words to satisfy that moment. Everything I needed I saw in her eyes And while I’m sure the moment was brief, We overcame time and s...
Paradise is not a place but a state of mind; I see it only through her eyes I visit it only through her soul
When her soul speaks to me I want to do such bad things With her body And such wonderful things With her mind
You're the one that breathes life into me, Don't hold your breath.
Babygirl, Don’t hold back You can let it all out There is no room for composure In the space between you and I.
Vodka has more of a burn When it’s no longer chased with her laughter
She sees the world through broken glasses Shattered by careless hands of the past Her vision blurred by the reckless No matter what she lays her eyes upon She’s sees the same cracks in every new s...
It was not until She shared her scars with me That I truly appreciated The magnificence of he beauty
Start introducing her as your soulmate And watch where she takes you
I’m in search of the place The place under the stars Where the broken souls migrate When the chill of loneliness Separates us from the others
I write so often and speak so much (even in times I should not be speaking) Words are my sanctuary They are my strength, my outlet, my go to, They flood my mind, they never cease My words are abun...
She caught me staring at her again I didn't realize that I was, my eyes were just lost upon her It wasn't the first time, it won't be the last, she is in fact, my favorite place to be lost. Time ...
Do you know lonely? Not the lonely of missing someone a few days Or the lonely of a Friday night alone The lonely that cloaks you like a warm blanket Confusing you of it’s intent Is it protection,...
To the one I love: I just wanted you to know... that whether I'm sleeping or awake you're the one that I see in my dreams With you by my side it's no longer a chore to be selfless When the world b...
I’ll never forget the first time I saw you walking my way Or the way I felt the first time you grabbed my hand I’ll always love the way we giggled the first time you drank a little too much and fel...
She showed me the brightest of lights I walked her through unimaginable darkness And now hand in hand We watch the sun rise again And kiss the dark goodbye
Why is it this way I see you everyday But I’ve never missed you more The look in your eyes is lifeless And the touch of your hand cold I can’t help but remember The nights of carefree flirtatious...
I find comfort in suffering I appreciate its consistency the most It never fails me, it never leaves me wondering It always delivers. It’s unlike the unpredictability of people Where relevance i...
Life isn’t worth Living When all that’s left is Breathing
I’m addicted to your pain Not only the pain you inflict upon me But the pain you carry every day Being immersed in your misery Is so much better than being alone in mine
I was lost for a long time Until I realized that I’d never be found I guess I was never really lost I just never fully understood my place
I’ll never understand why When you hurt me You bandage my wound so quickly Only to hurt me once again Just let me bleed in piece
I wish that I could say I missed her. If only it were that simple, But the truth is much more complex. Every second of every hour that she’s gone I feel her missing from me. Like lungs missing t...
An image appeared It was, blurry from afar But as I moved closer I could see it was her. But not her alone She had me at her side Flanked by a lone clock With missing hands I instantly understan...
Surrounded by finer things, Her heart craved a simple love
The difference between he and I, He believes he’s good enough for her I know I never will be. He’ll spend life living for the convenience of her I’ll bleed everyday becoming a better for her.
I’m forever bound to the beauty in pain Not the daily pain of life Oh what I’d give if that was all I knew The pain that haunts me is soul fracturing Pain that doesn’t need to wait for the dark To ...
The spiral has had me for a while It toys with me; letting me think I’m ok And with a sudden jerk downward I’m reminded that I may never be like being swept away in a current Fighting, struggling...
